“In the Beginning…”
II. Synchronistic Webs
The New Age Center
“At the End…”
A Three-Fold Jesus?
On Being 72
Essence versus Ego Identity
- To break the godspell(1) under which we live, we must--
especially the Judeo-Christian-Muslim spell.
Yahweh, Mohammed (and Allah) arrogant,
unmerciful killers/murderers(2) with Jesus teaching love.
Yet the Catholic Church kills heretics and tortures in the Inquisition
All in the name of "God."
- A start liberal Christianity offers (3)--see beneath the
interpretation of the historical Jesus for the Living Word.
The Gnostic Tradition (4) presents a symbolic, rather then literal,
viewpoint stressing the teachings, not a physical historical Jesus.
The Sumerian clay tablets (5) the foundation of the Judeo-Christian-
Muslim origins of man challenges; the "gods" were not mythical!
Ancient cultures/structures (6) --pyramids, stonehenge, Incan Cusco
Easter Island, Baalbek in Iraq, and many others--
WHAT IS MYTH, WHAT IS FACTUAL??
- Indian Avaita Vedanta (7) adds a further "non-dualistic" approach
in explaining the Old and New Testaments.
"Pure" Vedanta (8) transcends the concept of God as understood
in the Judeo-Christian-Muslim theology--introducing the impersonal
concepts of "Consciousness"/"Source"/"Oneness."
Enlightenment literature (9) further clarifies the nature
of Oneness in Western terms.
- WHAT IS REAL, WHAT IS UNREAL? Can we ever agree?
What unifying paradigm exists? (10)
- Even more complex, how explain planetary history
Enki/Enlil, bloodline concepts, Brotherhoods, secret societies,
power elites, secret governments, Federal Reserve
(with 10 primary
Exists a special bloodline? Members of which were
Jesus and Mary
This bloodline traced back through the Essene communities
to David to
Israel to Egypt to Sumer, as initiated by Enki
(The Lord, Adonai); and, Enlil (the Jehovah/YHWH
of the Hebrew religion) (13)
- What make you of all this?
Do you even care?
appendix A: A Synopsis of the Sitchin
Paradigm in Sapiens Rising.
Fingerprints of the Gods, by Graham Hancock. The Amazing Lid of Lord Pacal; and,
The Tutankhamun Prophecies; and,
The Lost Tomb of Viracocha, all by Maurice Cotterell; The Ancient Secret of the Flower
of Life, Vol. 1 and 2, by Drunvalo Melchizedek.
The Mystic Christ, by Ethan Walker; The Sermon on the Mount
According to Vedanta, by Swami Prabhavananda
The Heart of Awareness (a translation of the Ashtavakra Gita), by
Thomas Byron.Books by Ramana Maharshi, Ramesh Balsekar, Nisargadatta Maharaj--see
- Breaking the Godspell; and, God Games, both by Neil Freer.
- The Laughing Jesus mentioned above, pgs. 3-104.
- Rescuing the Bible from Fundamentalism; and, A New Christianity for
a New World, both by Bishop John Shelby Spong.
- The Laughing Jesus; Religious Lies and Gnostic Wisdom; and,
Jesus Mysteries: Was the "Original Jesus" a "Pagan" God?;
and Jesus and the Lost Goddess:
The Secret Teachings of the Original Christians, all by Timothy Freke and Peter
Gandy. Beyond Belief: The Secret Gospel of Thomas; and, The Gnostic Gospels,
by Elaine Pagels. See Confessions of an Ex-Jesuit, by Ken Pollinger, Vol.
1; The Nag Hammadi Library: Gnostic Scriptures ed. by James Robinson;
Jesus the Man, by Barbara Thiering (Dead Sea Scrolls)
- The 12th Planet; and, The Wars of Gods and Men, both by Zecharia
-see "Planetary History" aphorism in Confessions of an Ex-Jesuit,
Vol.1, by Ken Pollinger. Also: see
Culmination of the New Age Movement:
A Bibliographical Poem
My path: The Way of the Peaceful Warrior1
A path to Spiritual Enlightenment2
But, which kind? Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment3
Awareness4 of my onion-layed being
Thus, From Onions To Pearls5
Peeling away the layers
Till: From Seekers To Finders6
What, pray tell, is a Finder, an enlightened being?
This Is It7 Just As It Is: The Open Secret of
So....I offer you An Invitation To Awaken9
Awakening To The Dream10, with Radical Awakening:
Cutting Through the Conditioned Mind11
To Be And Not To Be12, that is the answer!
Acceptance of What Is13 equals The Power of Now14
Could this NONDUALISTIC TEACHING be the
culmination of the New Age Movement,
the end of the Mayan Calendar,
The Silence of the Heart15,
by realizing, I AM THAT?16
Such wonderful books!!
1. by Dan Millman
The Damnedest Thing, by Jed McKenna
The Perils and Opportunities of Reality, by Anthony De Mello, S.J.
A Journal of Awakening and Deliverance, by Satyam Nadeen
The Myth and Reality about Enlightenment, by Satyam Nadeen
The Nature of Oneness, by Jan Kersschot
Embracing our Natural State of Presence, by Tony Parsons
Book About Nothing, by Wayne Liquorman
Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment, by Eckhart Tolle
Vols.1 and 2, by Robert Adams
Talks with Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, ed. by Sudhakar Dikshit
From Confessions of an Ex-Jesuit, by Ken Pollinger, Vol.2
(available in Nirvana Bookstore).
- See www.neilfreer.com,
especially Sapiens Rising
- Same as above. Part III, The New Human
- See Sitchin above; Rule by Secrecy, by Jim Marrs, Bloodline of the
Holy Grail; by Laurence Gardner; Many of David Icke's books (except dismiss the
shape-shifting info and his take on Gardner)
- The Genesis of the Grail Kings, by Laurence Gardner.
COMMENT BY KEN: Recently two people told me they were starting Bible
study. Immediately I felt compelled to recommend that they see an Overview
of the development of the bible before such study, Thus, I whole heartedly
suggested John Shelby Spongs two paperbacks: Rescuing the Bible From
Fundamentalism; and, A New Christianity For a New World. I wish
I had had these two books in my Jesuit theological training.
NOTE: Obviously these books are just a sampling of a much more
extensive list - see the bibliographies and footnotes in each book for
FINAL NOTE: Many of you know me by now. One of my greatest
desires is to have an ongoing Study/Discussion Group (twice per month)
about the topics listed above. If this would interest you, please contact
me and indicate the day and hour you are available. Many thanks!
A Three-fold Jesus?
Jesus, a real physical person and NOT God,
- Jesus, a real physical person and God:
literal fundamentalism (1)
but a God-presence shinning forth (2)
Jesus, NOT a real physical person and NOT God,
but a symbolic MYTH (the teachings are important,
not the person) (3)
None of the above?
Something other? (4)
Is any of this important for you? HOW?
"Who do you say I am?", asked Jesus.
AFTER reading books recommended,
WHAT think you?
- Rescuing the Bible from Fundamentalism, by John Shelby Spong. A
GREAT quick overview of biblical scholarship--challenging.
- A New Christianity for a New World, by John Shelby Spong.
- Gnostic teachings: the "story/myth" of a physical Jesus for the
masses; symbolic teachings for the initiated. The Jesus Mysteries: Was
the "Original Jeus" a "Pagan" God?; Jesus and the Lost Goddess: The
Secret Teachings of the Original Christians; The Laughing Jesus:
Relisious Lies and Gnostic Wisdom, all three by Timothy Freke and Peter
- A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose, by Eckhart Tolle,
especially Chp.7, "Finding Who Your Truly Are."
On Being 72
- Sitting here, meditating,
yet there's no here.
And, who's meditating?
- 72 years ago
(yet time is an illusion)
Oneness decided to create this bodily form
called Ken Pollinger
(yet even this creation is an illusion).
- What a trip! --or, is trap better?
Mostly unconscious, yet finally awakened
to who this form really is--
ESSENCE,whose essence is EXISTENCE,
The Background of all beingness1
- Fully god-realized? Established permanently
in the awakening?
Not yet--and why not?
Is it just a flip of the awareness switch?
Always on, while appearing off.
- Gratitude arising. Peace remains. Laughter interrupts.
- The essential understanding is that in reality
nothing is. It is non-being only that is, and there is nothing but that.
It is only in function of Non-being that being SEEMS TO BE. Being must
be replaced by Non-being--in order that anything may be. For Being is a
projection of Non-being. This is the necessary realization, and,
perhaps, the ultimate--that Nothing alone is, that there is only Is-not,
that Is only by virtue of Is-not--for nothing but Nothing is of itself,
and only the isness of Is-not can be. That is the realization of the
Void. The Void (Non-Being) alone is complete. Thus we must rid ourselves
of the idea of Being as well as of self. See page 45 of Ask The Awakened: The Negative Way, by Wei Wu Wei.
NOTE: Just finished Your Head In The Tiger's Mouth:
Talks in Bombay with Ramesh Balsekar, ed. by Blayne Bardo. A thought
arose: What's next?
- Will Grace get "me" out of the way?
What, perchance, does Consciousness want
to manifest through this body-mind organism?
- Thoughts/ emotions arise.1
In silence, and if receptivity is given,
then the blueprint emerges.
Yet nothing needs to be done
for it is ALL maya (illusion).
But what fun observing the process
till the functioning energies of this form
return to the pool of Consciousness--
perhaps again, in another combination,
pass into a future body-mind organism
till the process of seeking ends in awakening2.
- Thus, the key, which is not in this APPARENT form's control,
is the complete acceptance of What Is.
Decisions have to be made.
Live life AS IF there is free will,
making decisions with this form's standards of
ethics, morality and responsibility..
Whatever the decision is will be God's will..
If manifestation is the DESTINY, it will HAPPEN.
- The happening is enjoyed!
Yet impatience arises and is observed,
- Page 419: "Thought does not orginate in the body-mind organism,
it comes from outside and a split-second later the brain spontaneously
reacts according to its conditioning; a thought is an input which brings
about an output which leads to causation."
- Page 402: "The SPONTANEOUS IMPERSONAL EVENT at the end of the
process of seeking in which there is the total, apperceived, intuited
understanding IN THE HEART that there is no doer and never was a doer or
seeker; the ego, the "me," completely disappears."
Note: The original VEDAS are the most ancient sacred literature of
Hinduism which start out as mythical and ritual and culminate in the pure
philosophy of VEDANTA, based on the UPANISHADS, with ADAIVTA VEDANTA
being the most well known branch, established by Adi Shankara in the
NOTE: My destiny was to find a book of GREAT VALUE. Probably the CLEAREST
and most PRECISE investigation of the void and the inner essence, also
known as the soul. Essence with The Elixir of Enlightenment, by A.
- Such a yearning arises
that this body-mind form
"fears" a gigantic explosion/shattering of itself.
Unleasing a non-physical substance within,
returning to its undifferentiated primordial form,
alchemically* transcending into pure consciousness.
- Such a BLESSED yearning!
*"The individual has to be steeped in the direct knowledge of essential
development in order to understand alchemical texts and to see that
alchemy is literally the science of inner chemistry, or the science of
dealing with subtle substances." Page 71 of Essence with The Elixir of
Enlightenment, by A. G. H. Almaas.
Also, "The truth of substantiality: essence or being is not a state of
mind but is an actual and palpable ontological presence." "The essential
substance is experienced in its deepest nature as existence. And essence
has many precise and definite physical characteristics (aspects). Thus
inner development is seen as a transformation of essential substance from
one aspect to another, until they are all realized. Essential
transformation is TRANSUBSTANTIATION!
NOTE: For one of the clearest, most precise, and elegant books on
enlightenment may I suggest: Essence with the Elixir of Enlightenment, by
A. H. Almaas. I write the following in honor of two year old Liam, my
Essence (the true Self)
versus Ego Identity (the false self)
- Essential Presence manifests in the new-born babe/young child.
Innocence, wonderment, newness, the miraculous is seen.
The God within, the Kingdom of Heaven within shines forth.
Essence, our true nature, before conditioning,
exists right in front of us.
What a sight! What delightful attraction!
The young child's REAL Self----before ego/personality develops
(the make-believe, made-up, false self )----beckons to us.
- Essence (Life Itself), has many qualities (aspects, characteristics)
and its nature is to be completely manifest over time.
"The baby knows essence but does not know that he knows."
"The baby is not only born with essence,
but essence is the baby that is born."
A small child has no ego, no personality,as yet;
he is what he really is----he IS essence
(one undifferentiated mass/whole).
Then, somehow, his essence is gradually covered over,
aspect by aspect, and the personality develops to
fill the "hole" of the concealed essence.
As baby grows, different aspects of his essence
dominate in different periods of his development.
At two months to about a year, the essential aspect
of MERGING LOVE/FUSION1 with the mother develops,
yet the baby is still unaware of differentiation between himself and
- This symbiotic unity, at times, disappears and
eventually is almost completely veiled.
When MERGING LOVE is hidden, there is left in its place a vacuum,
an emptiness, a lack, an absence, a "hole" in the baby
---and pain is experienced.
Ego development arises2. The child learns to fill the emptiness,
to cover it up, to bury it,
by developing certain parts (fillers) of his personality.
Thus, the ego and its identity (self), ego-identity, are formed by the
organization of "self-representations (fillers)" which function to
fill the holes of essential disappearances: the false self appears!
- In time, there will be very little essence in the child's conscious
Essence becomes repressed, relegated to unconsciousness.
The average person mistakenly believes that his personality is he
The personality is not the being
but is an IMPOSTOR pretending to be the truth.
The deepest nature of the personality is a deficiency, a hole, an
- "Freedom is first a freedom FROM----from the personality.
Later, it is freedom FOR----for the essence to be."
- So, remember: ESSENCE is the TRUE SELF
Ego Identity is the false self
Ego allows the body/mind organism to function.
- How can the various aspects of essence be retrieved?3
The answer is read Essence by Almaas
- "The "I" is not yet differentiated from the "not-I",
and the inside and outside are only gradually coming to be seen as
- "The ego identity, the self concept, is the
organizing center, the apex of the developmental process----the "I." In
spiritual and work literature the ego is equated with the ego-identity.
The so-called ego-death is the death of the ego-identity; the remaining
functional ego allows us to function in the world.
- Chapter 4, The Retrieval of Essence; and, especially
chapter 5, The Development of Essence.
NOTE: A.H. Almaas, pen name for A. Hameed Ali, born in Kuwait, combines
Sufism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Gurdjieff with Freud, Jung, Wilhelm Reich, ego
psychology, object relations theory, and self-psychology: the new
psychological knowledge is combined with ancient, basic, wisdom to yield
The Diamond Approach to inner realization.
- Inherited genetics, plus
Childhood conditioning (socialization)
-believe that I am a person with an ego
-believe that the world is real as sensed through the five senses
-believe that God is the Judeo-Christian Father in the sky (heaven)
-believe in my religious training
-believe that I have free will.
- Aware of different cultural programming=
relativity of programming
- Quantum Physics: I'm more space than solidity
- Different religions with different beliefs
(each has THE truth!!) Contradictions abound.
Buddhists don't even believe in God.
- Meditation; new emphasis--instead of From Without to Within,
now, From Within to Without (a la Zen)
- A Course in Miracles and Advaita Vedanta (Indian thought),1
both stressing NON-DUAL TEACHINGS.
- The ego and the world are illusions.
Both of these are the dreamt.
- Go beyond the CONCEPT of God
to the CONCEPTS of Consciousness or Source.
And even beyond ALL concepts
as they are just POINTERS.
For the Infinite cannot be comprehended!
- Realize that there is only this body-mind organism
being used by the Dreamer for Its own design.
- Wake up to ONENESS/UNICITY
(an impersonal awareness),
there are no objects only Subjectivity,2
with manifestation WITHIN Itself).
- A New Species arising3
The Final Understanding is experienced.4
No free will! Just conditioned to believe you have free will.5
And Consciousness manifests Its will through
these body-mind organisms.
- So Enlightenment and Endarkenment yield to Enlivenment.6
The opposites are reconciled
and the illusion as well as the Reality can be embraced.
- Is this the culmination of the New Age Movement?
- See the literature listed in the Vision of the Point
- Ask the Awakened, by Wei
- A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose,
by Eckhart Tolle.
- Your Head in The Tiger's Mouth: Talks in Bombay
with Ramesh Balsekar, ed. by Blayne Bardo. "So
all that happens is that Consciousness is witnessing whatever is
happening among the objects It has created. And that wanting to know
Itself is something that is created by Consciousness."
- "Nothing can happen unless it is God's will."
- The Laughing Jesus: Religious Lies and Gnostic
Wisdom, by Timothy Freke and Peter Gandy.
NOTE: After my weekly Bodywork session with Ginny
Flint (845-353-8332) the following poem presented itself.
- Entering, together, into sacred space.
Slowly connecting to the embodied spirit world,
Allowing the deepest emotional stuckness
to arise, dissapating into the ether.
Original nature appears once again
-- in the adult body--just as in the
new born babe it emerged.
- True nature floods the cells.
Essence is recovered and relished
while extreme gratitude is experienced.
- To leave the world behind, with its challenges,
if only for an hour.
And allow the embedded essential dimension
to enjoy itself.
Blessed are the Essential Bodyworkers2
And now, back to the world, differently.
- See Essence with The Elixir of Enlightenment, by A.H.
Almaas for perspective on "recovering essence"--with joy being one
essential aspect of essence.
- It's exceedingly difficult to describe Ginny's
bodywork since she uses so many modalities while being intuitively
guided. Different non-touched parts of the body are finally found, while
long-held, really deep-seated knots melt--essence arising-- in her
releasing hands, elbows, and unusual bodywork positions. A reference
might help: The Trigger Point Therapy Workbook, 2nd Vol., by Clair
Davies--but only experiencing Ginny's Essential Bodywork can capture its
importance. What more can I say?
NOTE: While browsing True Sounds catalog I felt
overwhelmed with even more books, audios, and videos appearing. I figure
it would take a few lifetimes, full-time, to even dent all that's out
there. So, after breathing deeply for a few minutes, my pen composed the
- So MANY books to read;
audios to hear;
videos to watch;
spiritual paths to travel.
- So MANY meditations to try;
bodywork modalities to experience;
sacred sites to visit;
"readings" to ponder;
workshops to attend.
- So MANY health alternatives to question;
healings to receive;
healthy diets to undertake;
nightly dreams to explore;
therapies to examine/use.
- Reviewing the above1---overwhelmed????
With so much to do, why not just "be."
The Direct Path---Non-Dualism--shows the way.
The essential thing is to know ESSENCE3
Try being SPIRITUALLY UNDERWHELMED.
Let the false self drop away.
Let all the aspects of ESSENCE arise.
Then, "be" and "act" as guided.
- For someone who did much of the above, see From
Onions to Pearls, by Satyam Nadeen, Chp. 2, "Personal Background," pages
- Enlightenment literature: visit
www.NewAgePointofInfinity.com, click onto Point of Infinity, the go
to Vision of Point.
For more: The Impact of Awakening; My Secret Is Silence;
Dancing--all by Adyshanti. Plus his audio: True Meditation: Discovering
The End of Reincarnation: Breaking the Cycle of Birth and Death, by Gary Renard.
Through the Open Door, by Eckhart Tolle (audio)
- The Diamond Approach as taught by A.H. Almaas (many
books, audios, videos).
- Every night we dream
even though many aren't aware of it.
Yet some are and do nothing.
What make of dreams?
- Many interpretations---Freudian, Jungian, Sullivanian, etc.
Even within the same system, different meanings.
So----What to do?
- One proposal: GESTALT DREAMWORK by Perls.
Various suppressed facets of personality,
hiding aspects of Essence,
Reveal themselves in sleep.
These facets call to be faced/explored.
- This inquiry frequently leads to an "impasse"
--a stuck point, where one fears the awaiting unknown
as well as desires the security of the known,
however dysfunctional to Essence growth.
- Finally one "death layer" of ego identification
is approached/confronted in Gestalt Dreamwork.
Breaking through this ego-identification-death-layer
the pearl of great price is uncovered:
Another aspect of Essence arises.
- No conceptual interpretation, simply experiential elucidation.
Let the LIGHT shine on the diamond-faceted Essence.
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